🇲🇽 Avenida Insurgentes Billar - 02.21.2026

"Don't search for the answers, which could not be given to you now, because you would not be able to live them...the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer.“ — Rilke

I think I’m tired of asking questions… I have enough answers to get me through this day. I lost so much weight. I’m having a difficult time looking at myself in the mirror. My arms fall out of my shirts sleeves like noodles. I cinch my belt as tight as it goes… and my pants still fall off my ass. I think about all the times I’ve said to myself, “I need to lose weight…” and now I’m uncomfortably thin. I know it will be a short time before I gain it back… and I can resume the gym next week and work on the noodles. It’s a transition… and a process… but I can’t say that I’m unhappy. Just… dazed and confused maybe…

Despite the ill fit… I put my street clothes on today. Lau is back from her beach vacation so we can resume our shenanigans. Her skin is 50 shades of tan darker… especially next to my own.

We always meet on Avenida Insurgentes - MetroBus 1 line. It’s easy for both of us. She’s low maintenance but expresses her desires… mariscos, chelas, apapachar, and billiards. I dig all of those things… so it’s win win.

I feel happy to be out in the night… in the depths of life. Living the questions I no longer want to ask. And the answers that I’ve already had… are no longer relevant… because I’m busy in this moment.